The Blamed

Judging people is the easiest reaction to do. We always look for someone to blame, condemn and judge. Why? Because we always want to be better than others. Inferiority is something unacceptable to the society. We always want to be on top of everything and submission is "showing weakness". Until when will this superiority complex stop? Well, from the society's point of view, it's a non-stop cycle. As long as someone wants to be better, then, it will never stop.

I myself understood how it felt like to be inferior. I always get blamed whenever something is wrong in the house. Or if something bad happened, I get accused. To be honest, I am really really sick and tired of it. Even if my hands were clean, I am still the point person....literally "point person". I often can't see the point why I am always being blamed about the wrong things as if I'm the jinx in the family....even to the most insignificant events. Upon contemplating, I was reminded of John 8:2-11...the exact verse that was discussed during our Christmas Party. I felt I was like the woman, being shamed and accused. No one will ever understand what I am going through but ONLY Jesus can. So, everytime I get blamed again, I hear His voice saying..."He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first" and "Neither do I condemn you. Go and sin no more" It does comfort me. Thank you Jesus for being there for me!

God Never Makes Mistakes

While watching the third episode of Glee, I was struck by the words of Sue's sister..."God never makes mistakes." It's true. How can a God who created the whole universe makes mistakes? In fact, He said that everything He created was good. I don't think God is a liar. But how come things became bad? It's because, sin entered the world. Sin, ruined everything including the GOOD creation of God. And, sin, separates us from God that's why there's such thing as death. And death, is the payment for our sin (Romans 3:23a). But, the GOOD NEWS is God so loved us that He gave His ONE and ONLY SON, Jesus Christ to save us from the bondage of sin. Jesus didn't have to die in our place but because He loves you and me so much that HE did it. All we have to do is to be humble, confess that we are sinners and believe in Him and what HE did at the cross. Ask Him to be the LORD and SAVIOR of your life and you will be transformed. Life transformation is a process. I myself is also a working progress of God. Walking with Him allows me to know Him more and compells me to love Him more that leads me to do what pleases Him. For it is by grace you have been saved through faith, not of works lest anyone should boast (Eph. 2:8-9).

In life, we don't always get what we want. We experience pain, trials, discomfort etc. These negative events will make us doubt if God really exists or if He really cares. When we don't have a relationship with Jesus, we always see everything in the negative perspective. However, according to Romans 8:28, "all things work together for good to those who LOVE God and to those who are called according to His purpose." I highlighted the word LOVE because that's the basis of it all. If you love God, then you will do as He commands and it will not be burdensome. The negative things will now become positive. Life is still tough but with Christ in me, it will be easier because He is the one who is leading me.

God's Fingerprint: Mt. Mayon

If you will be asked to show God, how will you do it? God is invisible however, we can see Him through Mayon Volcano. He revealed Himself to me.

He is perfect. He stands majestically and can be seen whether you're on land or sea. If you patiently seek Him, He will show Himself to you. You may not see Him when clouds surround Him but mind you, He is always there and never leaves. When He gets angry, He pours out burning lavas and can ruin a whole community. But when He quiets down, His majesty still overrides His cruelty.

Mayon may be just one of God's fingerprints. And through His creation, His fingerprints are all over the world. It's just a matter of looking into the details and seeing things from His perspective.

When God Breaks Your Pride...

The most hurtful thing I ever experience in my life is when God breaks my ego. However, it is also the best thing because it has been a bondage breaking experience. God has been teaching me to lower my pride but I kept on ignoring that lesson until I get hurt. Eventhough I was hurt, He still embraced me and whispered to me that He did it because He loves me. Then when I submit, liberation filled my heart.

One instance was when I was out of town for a vacation, I was not feeling well. I played a "hero" that afternoon that made me feel worse in the evening. I was chilling and flu came to my system. At first, I thought I can make it through the night because my ego would tell me that I didn't need any help and I have to be tough. But God reminded me to lower my pride and seek for help. So, to make the long story short, I woke my friend up and she assisted me to feel better. And, true enough, I had a good night sleep.

Lesson learned...pride breaks people and humility liberates people. I would never forget that incident because God has used my physical weakness to learn that hard lesson. I'm just glad that even though He breaks me, He still continues to care for me. Praise God!

In His Time

"In His time, in His time. He makes all things beautiful in His time." God answers our prayers in His time. Often times, we are very impatient. It is our nature that we want things done right away. We hate delays and we don't want our plans to shatter. However, God taught me a lot of things about having faith in Him and waiting for His timing. Holding on to Him has never been easy because worry has filled my heart. Logic played a big role but it was not what God wanted me to practice. It is clear in the Bible that I have to work out my faith and not my logic. And, it's amazing to see God's hand move in my life when I surrender everything to Him. I learned to look at situations from different perspectives and God will always impress on me the positive perspective.


I just want to praise Him today because God's hand is on every situation I'm in. Also, I can see Him move in my two friends' lives too. I may have a different situation but God is now fulfilling His promises one by one and in His time.

Promises: Protection, Provision and Peace...

For the past few days, I was so worried about what will happen in my life. I'll be losing my job in a few days and I am not quite sure how my next job will be. I am having limited monetary funds and I need to pay up so much debts. Also, I am so busy that my time with God is quite limited. I just don't know what I should do. It seems like my life is a "storm" in the heat of the summer!

However, God kept on reminding me to trust Him and with His still small voice, He was telling me that He is with me. Finally, I was given a time to spend time with Him in Soularium yesterday. He prompted me to read Psalms 125-135 and it was so amazing that He spoke to me through those verses. He assured me that I need not worry about what will happen to me and gave me three promises: Protection, Provision and Peace. But the condition is, I need to fear Him and wait on Him. He also gave me an example through the story of Saul and Jonathan in 1 Samuel 13-14:23 that I should wait on the Lord in everything I do.

I know that waiting could be a problem for me but since this is His command to me, I have to be still and know that HE IS GOD! He will be the one to fight my battles and I will get through this storm in my life.

Remembering Mom

She was supposed to be 53 years old today but God took her away 13 years ago due to her sickness. I never had the chance to say goodbye to her properly nor thanked her for what she did. The only time and the last time I felt her hug was 3 months before she passed away. I never appreciated all her hard work during the first 14 years of my life and I regretted it. However, it all turned out that God has greater plans for me that's why He allowed this thing to happen. And, looking back, if it didn't happen, I will never appreciate my life like I do today. I will never learn how to achieve and strive hard for success. Also, I will never know how to take care of myself and also others.

My mom has always been a good mom. She makes sure that me and my brother's welfare are taken care of. And when we're sick, she would always sing "God Will Take Care of You" (Chinese Version) and monitor our condition. I also missed the Friday Pizza Night at Pizza Hut with All-Cheese Pizza or Meat Lovers Pizza. To her friends, she has always been the most loyal friend in the planet. She is a very down to earth woman who does not consider her social status. And as a Christian, she is the role model. She has touched the lives of many people and she was a blessing to most of them up until now. She has always been remembered as the mother and a friend to all. On this special day, this blog is dedicated to her. I know that she won't be able to read this anymore, but this is my way of saying that I am very proud do be born and raised by Rosalina Bendicion-Fung!